Imagine

Lets just imagine that we never exist. No problems. Yup exactly. No money problem. No need to wake up in the morning to work. No need of waiting for the train/bus or stuck in the jam. No need to sleep early at night. No need to worry about the projects. No need to struggle in college days. No sleepless nights, thanks to assignments. No need to fight with friends. No need to argue with parents over the course we gonna study. No boyfriend/girlfriend. No worries of what to accomplish in life. No need to sit for exMs in school. No need to waste 11years in school , just to qualify in a college. There wouldn't be tension, stress, cry, pain, laughter and all those emotion.


Ps : We exist. There all written above is part of our life. Like it or not, we got to live it. We have to experience every single of this. Its essential. Its true. And this determines who we are now & what we will be in future, and what should we do now, in the present.

I wanted you so badly, I WANTED, note this word. Know how it feels to be rejected? To be deceived? When you needed me, you came running after me, I accepted you!

And now? Now , you don't need me, so when I am running behind you, you're going too fast, keeping me a great distance away. I am a fool right? To still love , when you said you don't feel the same towards me?

Bored of me? Bored of having to keep up to my attitude? Or too much ego? To much ego to accept the fact that, indeed, man ego have been challenged, therefore, being in a relationship with me, is just a waste of time. Am I right?

Now , don't deny this. I am not in the state of mind , to take your denial. Because for me this is true. Lets not talk about who deserve whom, lets not talk about how much we loved each other, lets not even talk about our future. For present time sake, we can make it happen. If you want. But i know you wont :) .

Its been a while..

When you're hurt, you hardly could feel your sense, let alone writing in a blog. What i've gone thru? TERRIBLE.

My heartbreaks are the one I am afraid of, all the while. Thats the only thing that makes me able to stare at a building and tears dripping, like some mad girl. I might seem mad, but no one knows my pain.

All they need to do is to understand a little bit of me, of who i am and what i want. I do the same, didn't I ? Why? Why cant one of you just change a lil bit for me? Rather than keep rejecting me over and over again? I don't deserve good things? No. Thats what they gonna say. They gonna say that I deserve much better in life. OH REALLY?

How can they decide what I want? What I deserve? How can they? Why is it so hard to forgive me? Why? Why wrong i have done that everything, everyone is so harsh towards me?

Just for once. JUST FOR ONCE. Be nice to me. Be really nice to me. Feel up my emptiness and give me a reason to live. A reason to carry on my life. Just a feeling that I have someone who will never let me go. And that someone is YOU.

Because it has been a while, since I really laughed. It has been a while, since I meant it when I say" yes, i am okay'. It has been a while Since I really felt LIFE.