When i was four .... Ice cream was my favorite.I cant live without vanilla ice cream.A cone is a must!! I remember getting scold in public,because i was crying for ice cream.I even got hit because of this ice cream.but i'm wondering,what is it in the ice cream that made me addicted to it? I don't have the answer till now!! And i don't wish to get an answer.I believe it is all for good .... 
When i was six,i was crazy about sailormoon!I can sing the theme song very well! Forget about Negaraku, twinkle twinkle little star even doesn't enter my brain... I used to beg my mum to watch the cartoon. Fight with my brother and etc.... Sailormoon freak i was! Hmm.. i remember having a costume but i dont know where is it now!But it is over now...years has passed and am all grown!When i was 8, i was this little dumb monkey.
I used to climb trees fight with boys and so on.Gempak right?Then all of sudden i changed into a quiet girl.Sitting in a corner,all by myself.I start to study hard.Real hard.I was just 8..but i have no choice but to study hard. I have to be in top class,according to my mom.So i became budak baik!
When i was 10.. i went into the upper primary.. new era..so called.I was the tallest and all started to tease me.They call me giant.It was hurting.I used to cry in the toilet. I never had a friend.And thats when i got the true meaning of being alone!No one even care about my existence,Busy with their won life,they didn't realize my tears.and years when of like that.... 
When i was 12, i was pressured hard to study..Kononnya,calon UPSR,I never had a proper sleep.I sleep everyday at 12am.Even though i am sleepy,i couldnt sleep because my mom wil be holding this rotan in her hand and forcing me to study.Me having no choice have to study! But thank god it paid off! I got straight A's and became top student in my school.So i when to secondary school! 
When i was 14,my nightmare begin.I got into the best school.But i couldnt cope with the kids in it.I had no friends.I had this worst appearance and i when through depression.cry and cry!..And i had my first crush!/but he hated me.thats the worst part but still i excel in studies..and it goes on...
When i was 16,i think i had the best year.Hmm..celebrated my 16th birthday will all my classmates attending it..not to forget my crush as well... but even though it was happy,but i lose my life at just a second.They left me.Back..i have no friend but this time i didn't cry.I just when through it...I met my boyfriend of 3 years..and finally i got some life back..Enjoyed moments with him..Still fresh in my memory...
When i was 18, my nightmare came back again..when i was excited school was over for once..i was forced back to school to continue my form 6.For once,i thought its for my own good but it turn out the other way.So i decided to stop and do something else.So i worked... and after few months,joined college....and things started to change.... and i broke up with my bf!
Now im 20..the best part of this year is i got lots of wonderful friends that brought meaning to my life.Brought color back to my life.Now i can live my life without worries because i know at any moment,every step i take,i have a hand to hold onto,a shoulder to lie....  |
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